Why is it on Saturday you are up bright and early - is it because you don't want to waste one single day of the weekend, or is it that knee that was crammed into my back from an almost 6 year old who is afraid of missing things so she come and climbs in the bed with us at 5 am....  ANYWAY - it's probably a good thing because we needed to get up early this morning.  We are going to do 6 year old pictures for Kaitlyn, 3 month old pictures for Lainey, and maybe even through in some family pictures or pictures of me and Glen.  It will take a long time for me to get beautiful so I'm sure this is for the best.  I cannot believe that my baby is almost 6 and in kindergarden, just really not sure where the time went.  I am so blessed to have the family that I do - a wonderful husband who is my best friend and 2 of the most adorable girls in the world.  Thank you Lord for all these blessings!

God's will

Well, this will probably be quick and to the point...  This has been a really eye opening week for me.  God has opened a door and shown me the potential is there to fulfill one of my heart's deepest desires.  The question is do I have the faith to believe it's possible?  I think I do - I'm working on having it.  But it's a hard thing to do when the dream has been ripped away from  you before... what makes this time different?  It's really hard to keep the doubts and fears at bay and remember that God is in control of it all.  If it is His will, it will Be.  Something that would have made me so happy before now has made me fearful, doubtful, and worried.  I have to learn to rely on Him and not myself.  There are many lessons involved here and many factors at work.  I hope and pray that I'm being receptive to all of them.

What a week.....

Haven't had the time or inclination to "blog" in the past couple of days.  Been kind of focused on my family.  Kaitlyn still has pink eye and up until today, it didn't seem to be getting any better.  Upon calling the dr. today and telling them what was going on, they let me know it was highly possible she was having an allergic reaction to the eyedrops....  Sooooooo, no more eye drops (right after we gave her a dose), warm compresses, and benadryl (which makes her mean)...  Interesting couple of days.  I am however, greatly blessed.  I have felt like not such a good parent because I had to go off to work while Glen stayed home with Kaitlyn (he has more leave time available than I do).  As I snuggled with her tonight for a bit, I told her I felt like I had let her down by not staying home with her.  In that sweet little voice of hers, she said No, Mommy, you are the most super mom ever.  Nothing like her words to soothe my soul and ease my guilt (all self inflicted apparently).  My family is what makes it all worthwhile sometimes.  At the end of a not so great day, they are what I need to calm my spirit and they always seem to know just what I need.  Thank you God for giving me these 2 wonderful people to make my life complete.

What a day, what a day... Monday, Monday....

After a wonderful service at church yesterday, we came home for our usual - lunch, a nap for me and Kaitlyn together (our time), and Glen naps in his chair...  Late in the afternoon, Glen and Kaitlyn then went up to his mom's for a bit where Pris noticed that Kaitlyn's eye was swollen and kind of .  Upon further inspection, it did appear swollen and kind of purple when we put her to bed.  Didn't really think a whole lot about it, figured allergies were kicking in because she's always had such a hard time with them.  We have a routine at night of asking each other what we are thankful for.  Baby Bug (Kaitlyn's nickname) chose last night to answer for all of us.  According to her : I was thankful for a wonderful service at church as well as glad I had a baby girl who loved and worshiped God and Jesus; Glen was thankful for his two beautiful women; and she was thankful we had such a good day together.  Now, one of two things is possible - either we are very predictable in what we are thankful for or she knows her parents really well!  I choose to think it's the latter.  We are a very close family and we make no bones about loving each other very much.  I'm thankful that is ingrained into her spirit... but back to the swollen eye...  after a visit to the pediatrician today, he confirmed pink eye.  EWWWWWWW.  This means no school today or tomorrow and Glen is doing the babysitting.  He will probably be about nuts tomorrow afternoon, but despite what he thinks - God made him into a great Daddy and our baby girl loves him soooooooo much.  Now, Glen thinks that he was not cut out for it, but I beg to differ.  His patience level may be short, but his love for her surpasses most everything else.  There are so many kids who don't have parents that love them and I really feel for those children.  I just don't understand how anyone can birth or father a child and not give a rat's behind about that child.  It just makes no sense.  I seem to be rambling a bit this time, but I think that's because so many things are going through my befuddled brain.  Glen and I did talk today about how blessed we are in having a child who rarely gets sick.  In her short 5 years, this is only the 2nd time she's ever had a prescription for ANYTHING.  She has been an extremely well child and for that we are thankful.

Time for me to head off to bed..... We'll see what I can come up with tomorrow :-)

Ahhhh, the weekend

Seems like I spend a lot of my time wishing my life away.... I spend the week wishing for the weekend, and when the weekend gets here, there is too much going on to have any type of downtime.  Go to the grocery store, wash the clothes, wash the dishes, clean the house.... the list goes on and on and on.  Seems like some weekends I never get any of that done.  Oh well - such is my life.


I found yesterday that this whole blogging thing was kind of therapeutic.  I blogged before going to work and was in such a calm frame of mind for most of the day.... well until the crazy lady called and cussed me out about her roaches (another story entirely).  But yesterday was a good day.  Glen was spending the evening in the woods (yes, I am a hunting season widow) so me and Kaitlyn had a girls' night.  We went to Little Caesar's and got a pizza and then went to Blockbuster and got a couple of movies.  It really was very relaxing.  Then at bedtime, I had promised her I would lay down with her, so I went to sleep holding my baby girl.  I am trying to treasure these moments, because I know it won't be like this forever. There will come a time when she wants nothing to do with me (but I really hope not) and I'll long for the time when she was little again.  The time has flown so quickly, can't believe that she really turned 5 last week.  Seems like I'm going to blink and she'll be grown with a family of her own.


My family is getting hungry, so time to go prepare dinner.  We are having baked potatoes and chili today because the day started out kind of cool.  Quality time with my family is valued above everything else and I love the moments of watching Kaitlyn sit in her daddy's lap while he reads her a story.  God knew I needed these 2 to make my life complete and I am so very blessed to have them.  All blessings come from God above and it's wonderful to know how richly he blessed me.  Until next time....

Starting out...

This has been something on my mind a lot lately, starting a blog...  but then I thought, who will care what I'm writing or what I have to say.  It's sad, but in a world of facebook and twitter, have we kind of forgotten to communicate?  I know personally, I will sit down and read through the news posts to see what's going on - but don't reach out as often as I should.  In talking to a dear friend of mine yesterday, I realized she was right about something.  If facebook is my sole source of contact with people I care about, then something has gotten lost along the way.  We live in a world of instant - instant food, instant communication, and sadly sometimes instant faith.  Personally, I have begun to want more out of life - more spiritually, more personally, and just M O R E!  It's up to me to change things, it's up to me to make it happen and I think today will start that.  It is time for me to reach my full potential and be a better example for my beautiful daughter who is one of God's biggest blessings in my life (will tell her story at a later date) - here she is :

She didn't ask to be brought into this world, but God has a purpose and a plan for her life.  It is up to me and Glen to make sure she realizes that potential.  (okay, time to get off the soapbox )


When I sat down to start this today, I didn't think I'd have much to say, but surprisingly, this has been very easy. I'm sure I'll fine tune it later, but this is a good start.... this is me!